i don't wanna be that girl

i take my pick
white
blue
yellow
round
square
oval
that pretty v
kill the pain
numb
oh yes, numb
no more pain here

it's better than alcohol
yeah, it is
in my head,
my grandmother laughs (aw hell)
she agrees
damn
soon i could be
rush limbaugh
or even worse
the girl from what's that show
oooooh damn
i can't remember
thank you google, different strokes
i should stop
i think i will
bring on the pain
bring it on