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peace.
your friend, my friend
writes to me
he says
i hope you are ok through this and
are able to find some peace with it all
and i think
i cannot find the peace
i cannot sleep
i have tried
and failed
i need it more than anything
escapism has been easy and
comfortable
until today
every single breathe
exhausts me
and unnerves me

although, i am strong.
seventeen long years ago
a man
stole a piece of me
i fought
bleeding
and i won
but i lost myself for years
in the end
only to make me stronger
yet scared

although, i let you in
for the first time
in fourteen years
maybe it was too much
maybe i was too much
do not be sorry
for putting me through you
i am not sorry,
for this month
has been wonderful
yes, wonderful

although, i will find the peace
and i hope it finds you

although, today
my future
still looks good
i only wish
wearing you
and
i only hear lyrics
from a song in a film
my some kind of wonderful

"like a river flows surely to the sea
darling so it goes
some things were meant to be
take my hand take my whole life too"